goodbye

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/tgz7FCG.png" alt="start"> It's time to wake up but you stayed up really late last night and now it's such a chore to stand up. There was only one reason why you're going to wake up today and it was something that has kept you up for several nights now. You stand up and [[look around your room->look around room]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/btcedWP.png" alt="look around room"> Your room is a mess. There are clothes everywhere. You haven't swept the floor in days. Your bedsheets are starting to smell. Your bag and several sketchbooks are lying on the floor. Would you like to clean your room? [[> Yes->clean room ]] [[> No->don't clean room]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/jKQQ8iR.png" alt="clean room"> You started cleaning up your room. You didn't want anyone to think badly of you once you're gone. It still took you quite a while to clean up everything though. Maybe spraying your favourite baby cologne around your room would be nice as well. This will help them remember [[you->remember bath]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/TYq9XsZ.png" alt="don't clean room"> You went back to bed. What's the point of cleaning it up anyway? They would clean it up for you once you're gone. [[You->remember bath]] don't really think that a messy room is something to be ashamed of.

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/7QymlJM.png" alt="remember bath"> You remembered that you haven't taken a bath for a week now. Would you like to take a bath? [[> Take a bath.->bath]] [[> Stay in your room.->stay in room]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/mHvnKTs.png" alt="bath"> You deserve one last relaxing bath before you go to hell or whatever. You took a towel and went to the bathroom. You opened the shower. The water was refreshingly cold. It helped you wake up. You wished you could stay in the shower forever. For someone who doesn't take a bath regularly, you do love taking cold showers especially in this great heat. You scrubbed yourself up until you were covered with bubbles. You played with them for awhile before you decided that you looked stupid and that what you were doing was childish. You finished taking a bath and went back to your [[room->prepare self]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/M5ZMdVI.png" alt="stay in room"> You don't mind being a bit stinky. Everyone ends up stinky anyway. You stayed in your room. Instead of taking a bath you just changed your clothes and put on some of your favourite baby cologne. You walk towards the [[mirror->mirror]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/F03Lpz8.png" alt="mirror"> You looked at the mirror. There's only you. You weren't really alone your entire life but it still feels like you were. You combed your hair to look more presentable before [[you went outside of your room->outside of room]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/M5ZMdVI.png" alt="prepare self"> You dried yourself up and put on the best clothes you have. You walk towards the [[mirror->mirror]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/CQptWmF.png" alt="mirror"> You head over to the kitchen to get some snacks before you go outside of the house but your mom catches you. ''"Oh! ____ you were going outside today right? Have I given you your money yet?"'' You shake your head and she gives you some money. You told her a couple of days ago that you were going outside today with your best friends but that's just a lie. You are going some place far away today. Somewhere familiar. ''"//Anak//, is there something wrong?"'' You've been staring into space for some time now. [[> "It's nothing, Ma."->it's nothing]] [[> "..."->...]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/1iJUc2b.png" alt="it's nothing"> ''"Hmmm... Are you sure it's nothing?"'' You reassure your mother that there's nothing wrong with you by [[nodding your head and giving her a smile->nothing is wrong]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/4gMdQkn.png" alt="..."> ''"You know you can tell me anything right?"'' [[> Tell her you're fine.->nothing is wrong]] [[> Tell her the truth.->tell her the truth1]]

''THE END'' Game and Art created by ''Jem J. Sarmiento / artsybarrels'' Music by ''David Valachovic / AdenFlorian'' Thank you so much for playing this game! Would you like to play again? [[> Yes->start]] [[> No ->endend]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/5rpSoBA.png" alt="goodbye"> Goodbye

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/n8zHzxR.png" alt="nothing is wrong"> ''"Alright then."'' Your mother gives you a hug. ''"I love you so much. We'll always be here for you ok?"'' Your chest starts to hurt. You feel nervous and guilty... but most of all, scared. [[> "I love you too, Ma."->saygoodbye1]] [[> Breakdown in tears.->breakdown]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/gUXZowh.png" alt="tell her the truth1"> You decided to tell your mom about the truth... about what was going to happen today. It's hard but you feel compelled to. You told her that you've decided that today was the day you end your life. Today was the day you would stop being a burden to everyone you know. You told her about your plans... how you would go and travel to your favourite train station and jump on the tracks so the train can hit you hard and trample you until your bones are crushed. You tried to hold back the tears but you started to cry. Your mother is speechless. She brings you back to your room. [[You both sit down on your bed.->don't say goodbye]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/dIxvkEh.png" alt="nothing is wrong"> You kiss your mom on the cheeks. It was time to go. ''"Goodbye, Ma. I love you."'' ''"See you later, //anak//!"'' You tried to smile at her. It'll be a long while before you see each other again, you thought. You took a deep breath and [[went outside->went outside]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/gUXZowh.png" alt="breakdown"> ''"Why are you crying? Did I say something wrong? What's going on?"'' In between tears, you told your mom the truth about what was going to happen today. You told her you decided that today was the day you end your life. Today was the day you would stop being a burden to everyone you know. You told her about your plans... how you would go and travel to your favourite train station and jump on the tracks so the train can hit you hard and trample you until your bones are crushed. You keep on crying. Your mother is shocked. She brings you back to your room. [[You both sit down on your bed.->don't say goodbye]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/RoPrQvv.png" alt="don't say goodbye"> ''"Please don't say goodbye"'' ''"We love you so much so please... don't say goodbye"'' You can't do this. You can't do this to the people who love you. It's hard but you need to live on... not only for others but for yourself as well. You almost forgot that you have so many things you could live for. You hugged your mother once more. [[You decided not to say goodbye today.->credits page]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/VxWvDk7.png" alt="went outside"> The sky looks dark. It might rain later. You have an umbrella with you though so no need to worry about that. The train station is pretty far away from here. You need to take three rides to get there. [[> Start the commute.->commute1]]

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/JLTK7dl.png" alt="commute1"> You ride a tricycle in order to get to the town center. The wind is getting strong. It started to rain. You loved the rain. It calms you down. It brings back memories of when you were young and sick. It was raining and your parents bought you some //lugaw// and //pandesal// for you to eat. They said it would make you feel better and it did. You arrived at your destination. It was time to [[ride a jeepney->commute2]] next.

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/NIPnuzU.png" alt="commute2"> There were only 4 people on board. It was spacious. The jeepney driver was driving pretty fast. It scared you a bit but you remembered that what you'll be doing will be far more scarier. You arrived at the bus station. Just [[one more ride->commute3]] before you arrive at your final destination.

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/YgQ7tbp.png" alt="commute3"> You step into the bus. It's a 2-3 hour ride before you get to your favourite train station so you took out your earphones, connected them to your phone, and listened to some tunes. You like commuting. It gives you time to think about random things while listening to some good music on your phone. Sometimes you look out the window and pretend you're in a music video. [[You started to fall asleep.->fall asleep]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/nMPCRo/goodbye_fall_asleep.gif" alt="fall asleep"> Approximately 30 minutes had passed before you finally woke up. Just a little more and you'll be arriving to your destination. You feel your body starting, wanting, to shake. The bus conductor asked if anyone was going to go off this station and you stood up. You went off the bus and [[climbed the stairs leading to the train station->train station]].

<img src="https://i.imgur.com/VlPR8QA.png" alt="train station"> You've finally arrived. This is it. This is where it will all end. You stand at the platform. Nervous. Scared. Hopeful. The last train just went off so it'll be awhile before the next one comes. You took your phone out of your small bag and decided you wanted to say goodbye to someone before you go. Who would you like to say goodbye to? [[> Mom->goodbyemom]] [[> Dad->goodbyedad]] [[> Little sister->goodbyelilsis]] [[> Your best friends->goodbyebestfriends]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/d6yvwo/goodbye_to_all.gif" alt="goodbye to all"> You've decided to call your mom. It rings. ''"Hello? ____? What is it, //anak//? Do you need anything?"'' ''"Ma, I just wanted to say that I love you so much. Thank you for everything you did for me. I'm so sorry if I was a burden to you these past few years. I hope you can forgive me. I'm sorry that I wouldn't be able to take care of my little sister. Please know that I love you all very much. Please remember me well. Goodbye, Ma."'' ''"____? What's wrong? ____?!"'' You see the train coming. It's getting nearer and nearer. It's probably time. Are you sure about this? [[> Yes->jump]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/d6yvwo/goodbye_to_all.gif" alt="goodbye to all"> You've decided to call your dad. It rings. ''"Hello? //Anak//? What is it?"'' ''"Dad, thank you for being so patient with us. Thank you for everything you did for our family. I'm so sorry if I was a burden to you and Mama these past few years. I hope you can forgive me. I'm sorry that I wouldn't be able to take care of my little sister. Please know that I love you all very much. Please remember me well. Goodbye, Dad."'' ''"____? Why? What's wrong? ____...? ____? ____?!"'' You see the train coming. It's getting nearer and nearer. It's probably time. Are you sure about this? [[> Yes->jump]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/d6yvwo/goodbye_to_all.gif" alt="goodbye to all"> You've decided to call your little sister. It rings. ''"Hello? //Ate//?"'' ''"I'm so sorry I couldn't be a better sister for you. I love you so much. Don't be such a troublemaker once I'm gone, okay? Don't forget to take care of our parents. I'm so proud of you. I hope you know that. You'll grow up and become so much better than me one day. I love you. I love you so much. Please don't end up like me. Goodbye..."'' ''"What are you talking about, //ate//? I don't understand... What is this about?"'' You see the train coming. It's getting nearer and nearer. It's probably time. Are you sure about this? [[> Yes->jump]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/d6yvwo/goodbye_to_all.gif" alt="goodbye to all"> You created a new group chat and added all of your 4 best friends in it. They were asking what the new group chat was for. You started to write your message. ''"Thank you for being friends with me and putting up with my shittyness. I hope you all have a good future. I don't think I will be seeing you guys anytime soon. I love you all so much. Please don't ever stop being such good people. Goodbye."'' You see them typing but it was too late. You see the train coming. It's getting nearer and nearer. It's probably time. Are you sure about this? [[> Yes->jump]]

<img src="https://image.ibb.co/g3FGK8/goodbye_gif.gif" alt="jump"> You jumped into the tracks. You thought you heard people shouting. The train did its job. Nothing matters anymore. You're gone but you're happy you said [[goodbye->credits page]].