Again

[[Again]]

How you feel Few activities: Try to work a bit. Brush your teeth. Go for a walk. Take a shower. Clean up your place. Take medication. Eat something. Do nothing. Look in the mirror. Again. Make the action paragraph start to communicate messages to the player.

Your head feels like crickets and shit. Probably the Benadryl from last night. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Best part of the day.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for thirty minutes at the park.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You pick up a bit.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Fried eggs and toast.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[This is great. This is your comfort zone. Doing nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A human person.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 2]].

You wake up and feel worse somehow. Every day is a little worse. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Hot coffee. Cream. One sugar.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for thirty minutes at the park.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You wash a few dishes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Black beans and toast.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[This is great. This is your comfort zone. Doing nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A human person.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 3]].

No sleep again. How long has it been? Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[You really need it today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for thirty minutes at the park.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You pick up a bit.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Rice and eggs.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[This is great. This is your comfort zone. Doing nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A human person.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 4]].

Your head hums with grinding static. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Yeah.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You put on your shoes, but can’t get up off the couch.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You wash a few dishes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[This is great. This is your comfort zone. Doing nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A human person.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 5]].

Nausea and pain. Your skull is the wrong size. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Yes please.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for 30 minutes at the park.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You pick up a bit.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Boxed macaroni and a can of tuna.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[This is great. This is your comfort zone. Doing nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A human person.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 6]].

Your brain is burning smoke trapped in a small room. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Maybe you can stay in here forever.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Coffee.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to do some work.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You stare at the dishes in the sink.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Fried eggs and toast.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[More nothing. You're good at this. You're good at nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You look off somehow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 7]].

A sharp pain insists at the back of your skull. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Maybe you can stay in here forever.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Absolutely.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to do some work.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for thirty minutes at the park.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You vacuum the front room.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[A box of granola bars you found in the cupboard.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[More nothing. You're good at this. You're good at nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You look off somehow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 8]].

You wake up to the wet rush of chemical emotions. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Maybe you can stay in here forever.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[At least there's coffee.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to do some work.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You sweep the kitchen.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Rice and eggs.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[More nothing. You're good at this. You're good at nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You look off somehow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 9]].

Your eyes are rough stones grinding in dry sockets. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Maybe you can stay in here forever.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[You can do it later.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Of course.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to do some work.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for a while and then feel dizzy and stop.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[No, it's fine.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Poptarts with peanut butter. It's basically a PB&J. Except much worse.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[More nothing. You're good at this. You're good at nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You look off somehow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 10]].

You are in pain. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Maybe you can stay in here forever.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[You can do it later.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Yes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to do some work.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You stare at the dishes in the sink.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Rice and some pickled green beans you found in the pantry. The label on them says 1991.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[More nothing. You're good at this. You're good at nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You look off somehow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 11]].

There is a fist around your brainstem and it is squeezing the life out of you. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Being warm almost feels like being loved.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Still delicious.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to work, but it's hard to concentrate.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You take a quick walk around the block.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You scrub the toilet.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is usually the best option.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Your hair is getting long.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 12]].

Each breath draws a plume of burning pain into your skull. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Being warm almost feels like being loved.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[It's a good reason to get out of bed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to work, but it's hard to concentrate.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for a while and then feel dizzy and stop.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[A cheese sandwich with pickles and mustard.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is usually the best option.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Your hair is getting long.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 13]].

Your head is a hundred pounds. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Being warm almost feels like being loved.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Maybe drinking more coffee will help.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to work, but it's hard to concentrate.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You take a quick walk around the block.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[You steam a bag of mixed vegetables you found in the freezer.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is usually the best option.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Your hair is getting long.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 14]].

Your face hangs like a wrinkled shirt picked from the corner of a bedroom floor. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Being warm almost feels like being loved.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[You can do it later.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Maybe drinking less coffee will help.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to work, but it's hard to concentrate.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You stare at the dishes in the sink.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is usually the best option.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Your hair is getting long.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 15]].

Thinking hurts. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Being warm almost feels like being loved.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Tomorrow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[You're out of cream so you drink it black.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You try to work, but it's hard to concentrate.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for a while and then feel dizzy and stop.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Toast and butter.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is usually the best option. ] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Your hair is getting long.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 16]].

You didn’t sleep. Your eyes are filled with blood. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You sit in the shower until the hot water runs out.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[More black coffee.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You work very slowly.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You spend a few minutes staring at the whorls of spackle on the ceiling.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You don't recognize the person in front of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 17]].

Your thoughts rattle like a box of broken glass. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You sit in the shower until the hot water runs out.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[You'll do it tomorrow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Black coffee. Sugar.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You work very slowly.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You try to walk in the park. Walking feels weird today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You take out the garbage.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You spend a few minutes staring at the whorls of spackle on the ceiling. You used to see things in those shapes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You don't recognize the person in front of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 18]].

Something in the back of your head tastes like blood. Or iron filings. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[You'll do it tomorrow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[At least it's hot.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You work very slowly.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[A frozen pizza.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You spend a few minutes staring at the whorls of spackle on the ceiling. You used to see things in those shapes. When you were a kid. Like, animals. Or continents? You remember staring at the ceiling every night and letting your imagination run wild.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You don't recognize the person in front of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 19]].

Your brain is too big for your skull. You can feel it bulging out of every crevice. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You sit in the shower until the hot water runs out.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Bit sour today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You work very slowly.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You stare at the pile of dishes in the sink.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Cereal.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You spend a few minutes staring at the whorls of spackle on the ceiling. You used to see things in those shapes. When you were a kid. Like, animals. Or continents? You remember staring at the ceiling every night and letting your imagination run wild. You remember a duck shape in the far corner. He kind of became a character in your nightly routine.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You don't recognize the person in front of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 20]].

Your teeth hurt. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[It's still coffee.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You work very slowly.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Not hungry.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You spend a few minutes staring at the whorls of spackle on the ceiling. You used to see things in those shapes. When you were a kid. Like, animals. Or continents? You remember staring at the ceiling every night and letting your imagination run wild. You remember a duck shape in the far corner. He kind of became a character in your nightly routine. There were duck shapes and boat shapes and huge waves! It was like looking at the stars. You could just stare and see a thousand different stories.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [You don't recognize the person in front of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 21]].

Your head is a box that makes headaches. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You bathed yesterday, right?] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Coffee.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You keep making mistakes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You sit on the couch and stare out the window.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[No.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Bread.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing is easy.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 22]].

Your head burns like a dead limb. It feels like it’s not getting enough blood. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You smell fine.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Tomorrow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Still hot. Still black.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You keep making mistakes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You don't have the energy right now.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Not hungry.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You do nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 23]].

You wake up alone. This should not surprise you. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You'll do it later.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Yes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You keep making mistakes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Definitely not.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You stare at the garbage piled on the kitchen counters. And then do nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Not hungry.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You do some more nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 24]].

Your thoughts are wrapped in cotton gauze. When you talk they stick to your tongue. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[It's not important.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Tastes burnt.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You keep making mistakes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You can do it tomorrow.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[No.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Not hungry.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[There is so much nothing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 25]].

You wake up covered in insect bites. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You know] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[that] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[none of this] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[matters, right?] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[These] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[things] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[you do] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[don't] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [matter] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[at all.] [[Again->Again 27]].

Your teeth ache for hours after you wake up. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[It's like] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[pushing the button] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[at a crosswalk.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[It's just] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[there] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[to placate] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[It] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [doesn't] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[help.] [[Again->Again 28]].

Your brain stings like the smell of burning plastic. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Nothing] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[helps.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Nothing] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[changes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You don't] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[get] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[better.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Nothing] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [is ever] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[going to change.] [[Again->Again 29]].

Sometimes you shut your eyes so tight the world shakes. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[The rest] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[of your life] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[will look] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[just] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[like] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[this.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[You.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Alone.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [In this] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[shitty apartment.] [[Again->Again 30]].

Sometimes you go into the back room and scream. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[But you do the things you're supposed to anyway.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Exercise.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Get help.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[Talk to someone.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You know,] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[those things] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[people say] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[when they want you] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [to bother someone else] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[with your problems.] [[Again->Again 31]].

More insect bites. You should try to keep the place cleaner. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Because they've already had enough of you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[That's why] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[the phone doesn't ring.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[That's why] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[people don't want to be around you.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[That's why] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[your life] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[is] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [the way] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[it is.] [[Again->Again 32]].

You are in so much pain. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Okay.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You keep making mistakes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Not hungry.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[Someday you'll have all the nothing you've ever wanted.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [Not today.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[Done.] [[Again->Again 26]].

Today you made it through another day of a difficult time in your life. And that is cause for celebration. How about going for ice cream?

You have to keep going. You have to keep trying. Try again?

You should probably recognize that. You should honor these years of struggle. Somehow.

But these are hard times. Maybe the hardest. And you are still here. And still trying.

Your brain is hard and tight. Like a dried sponge. Like burnt meat. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[And so every day] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[you do the same thing.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[And again.] [[Again->Again 33]].

Your face feels like melted wax. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [And again.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[And again.] [[Again->Again 34]].

You haven’t been eating enough. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Because there's nothing else to do anymore.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[And you kick your feet] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[and scream] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[but you're dragged forward anyway.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[Through an endless] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[stretch of days.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Like someone] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[might drag] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [an old dog] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[that doesn't want to walk.] [[Again->Again 35]].

You haven’t been sleeping enough. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[And you] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[hate this.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[You] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[really] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[hate this.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[But] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[you keep going.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [do] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[keep going.] [[Again->Again 36]].

Your thoughts have slowed to a dull ache. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[And maybe...] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[that's enough.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[For now.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[Maybe] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[just] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[getting] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[through] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[your day] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [is] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[enough.] [[Again->Again 37]].

Your thoughts are far away today. Like clouds. You watch them go. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[It's the smallest thing to feel good about.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Just getting through a day.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Just passing time.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[But...] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[these are hard times.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[Maybe the hardest.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[And you're still here.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[And] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [still] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[trying.] [[Again->Again 38]].

You left the window open last night. The world smells like rain. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[You should probably] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[recognize that.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[You should probably] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[do something] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[to honor] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[these years of struggle.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[These don't] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[have] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [to feel] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[like wasted years.] [[Again->Again 39]].

You are still here. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Today] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[you made it] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[through another day] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[in a difficult time] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[in your life.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[And that] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[is cause] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[for celebration.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [How about] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[going out for some ice cream?] [[Again->Again 40]].

Another day in your life. Take a [shower]<c1|. Brush your [teeth]<c2|. [Coffee]<c3|. Try to [work]<c4|. Go for a [walk]<c5|. Clean up [your place]<c6|. Eat [something]<c7|. Do [nothing]<c8|. Look in [mirror]<c9|. Take [medication]<c10|. (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c1)[Hot water. No thoughts.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c2)[Brushed.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c3)[Hot coffee. One sugar. And the cream you bought yesterday.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c4)[You get a bit of work done.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c5)[You walk for thirty minutes at the park. Another walker is struggling to contain an enormous dog that's galumphing down the trail and bouncing into other walkers and bushes and then into your leg. The walker pulls at the leash. They smile and apologize. You laugh and say it's okay.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c6)[You do a few dishes.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c7)[Fried eggs and toast.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c8)[You sit and relax for a minute on the step outside. The air smells like fall. You take deep breaths and try not to think about anything at all. Eventually your thoughts drift to the ice cream in the freezer. It's nice to have something to look forward to. Even if that something is just ice cream.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c9) [A person that is suffering.] (t8n: "dissolve") + (click: ?c10)[And a person that is [[still trying->Again End]].]

Try [[Again->Start]]?

Ice cream edit?

Like burnt meat? Or Like a dried sponge. Like a puck of burnt hamburger.